still trying to figure out...

The past week has really been obscure for me. It appears to me that I’m just one person, alone in a huge theater, watching a play that makes my eyebrows meet and makes my eyebrow raise.

I’m thinking, maybe I’m just overworked. I may be too exhausted since I don’t get enough rest lately. Can you imagine that after one busy day at work, I go straight to my dance practice (of course I change my clothes), warm-up for about a minute then, bam-bam-bam, dancing time. There were even occassions when after the practice, I have to meet someone over for coffee or dinner to have a tete-a-tete about their problems, about their love life, about their personal “businesses” with me (which, I must say, is most of the time a very sweet moment), to catch up what’s happening with me (which is actually touching but it makes me wonder what’s to catch up?), etc.

These topics are fine. What surprises me is that there were instances when they meet me to ask how to make the guy they like, like them back or how to make the girl of their dreams (so they say) fall in love with them. Waaaaa!!!! Am I a walking source of all the answers to such questions? I am not a guru. There’s not much that I could say. But I am flattered that you expect me to give you a very sensible answer.

For girls, I really don’t know how to attract a guy (honestly!!!). I guess you just have to be you. I don’t really know. Maybe you should try buying pills on how to make your venom more deadly. They say that the more venom you have the more the guys get drawn to you. Sounds so preposterous, don’t you think? For guys, it actually depends on what the girl likes. But then, girls don’t really know what they like not unless they see it *grin*

See how loaded my life can be? I have too many jobs! And that would include understanding those implausible misconceptions about me. One of them, I just learned lately. My friend whitherquick thinks that saying “no” to other people is a piece of cake for me. He thinks I’m the type whose frequent line is “hmm…. NO…next please….. hmmm… no…next please”. Oh please! No way! It’s a tough thing to do. Most of the time, saying no is the last thing you want that someone to hear but you have to do it because there’s no other choice. It’s better than dragging them along on an infinite road to nowhere.

So for those guys who are going through the process of reaching their goal and the girl is still not saying no, then keep it up! Maybe you’re about to get there! (yihee! Mr. Separate Lives)

I just realized that people who are in love looks so funny! And they act so weird and their smile is something you wouldn’t wanna miss on a boring day. They have this odd way of talking and explaining things. Their body won’t stop moving as if they wanna fly. And their eyes….. unbelievable. Their feelings are so infectious that it makes me feel I’m in love too even if I’m not.

All these issues and events brought me to think that for the past week, I’m in a milieu which I need to understand. Some people even asked what my previous entry meant and what’s the story all about. I don’t even know why I wrote it! I still can’t conceive the things going on around me and these things I’m feeling. They’re so obscure. Someone told me I think too much. Nah. I’m feeling too much…