on past issues and memory loss

Last week, i posted a new entry for my blog after two long weeks. It has been available for viewing for...what... around 10 minutes or so? Unfortunately, I had to remove it because one of the characters in the story said that the context was different when he can't even remember the words he said. Or was he just pretending he didn't? Well, i was so dead tired to even argue with him so i decided to delete it. I just can't believe that someone can actually say that there's something wrong or different in the context when that person can't even remember a thing or maybe pretends not to! I'm actually beginning to hate his memory. (Mr. I-am-not-avoiding-you-miss, how come you forget so many things but still remember me?)

I rant about how loud his voice was when he was talking to this other guy friend of ours on the bus on our way home. I find it really humiliating and he can’t even see my point. We were having one of our “normal” (yes that was normal) conversations through YM.

MIANAYM: do you think im playing? based on your secret criteria.
karinska: nope. ur not one of them and ul never be one. ur not even close. ur a plain friend.
MIANAYM: never saw myself as plain, different maybe but never plain
karinska: well maybe for others. but for me..... u r plain friend
MIANAYM: was i always a plain friend?
karinska: yes. y? u want me to put u somewhere else?
MIANAYM: im not sure. where is that anyway?
karinska: i dunno. thats y m asking
MIANAYM: i always thought i was once special. haha, assuming
karinska: YOU THOUGHT???!!!! JEEZZZZ
MIANAYM: yeah. sorry. assuming nga eh
karinska: what did u think then? that i like u? romanticly?
MIANAYM: that you could
karinska: i could wat?
MIANAYM: like me romanticaly
karinska: oh. well u left me. i couldnt like someone romanticaly if he left me
MIANAYM: so at the time that i havent left yet, it could have been possible but since i left, that blew my chances and now after ages, im just a plain friend
karinska: ur close to that. i mean.... there was a possibility. but of course that's way back then. people change
MIANAYM: bummer haha
karinska: feelings change
MIANAYM: of course. people grow. hopefully they do
karinska: i hope u did
MIANAYM: i hope so too ;) one thing i know, i dont leave people behind anymore i mean my friends
karinska: gud. i hope things go well with yah
MIANAYM: yep. and i honestly think im a good catch right now as a plain friend so if im one of your plain friends, your in luck ;)
karinska: nah. ur in luck coz i still talk to u
MIANAYM: true


After a couple of hours…
karinska: my blog has a new entry pero don’t read it haha
MIANAYM: hey, im a good sport, dont worry….. wait… this is not what happened :D but its funny. Is it ok if i txt the url to gerard, he might find it funny ?
karinska: no. wait. what happened? walang add ons yan ha. may kulang pero ala add ons. may papabago ka?shoot!
MIANAYM: na, its funny this way
karinska: ide-delete ko yan
MIANAYM: but its really not accurate. wag
karinska: so what's accurate? u want ur exact words?
MIANAYM: dapat pabasa mo kay gerard and ask him if its accurate
karinska: shut up. ill delete it
MIANAYM: its funny. its a good read. i dont mind. you dont have to delete it
karinska: what's accurate? if u dont say it... ill delete it
MIANAYM: hey, lemme think somehow, the context has become different. but thats communication right, at least our kind. thats why gerard should be the judge, in a sense. mas walang biases
karinska: ill just delete it
MIANAYM: dont delete it. its funny. least your other friends would have a good read. got a Q. is there a difference between falling inlove and being inlove??
karinska: none. fyi, i just deleted it
MIANAYM: are you mad at me? you sound...mad somehow. Or is it the time of the month?
karinska: its not even time of the month. It’s ok. everything's fine
MIANAYM: im not getting into your nerves or anything. cos im not trying to, fyi
karinska: no. im fine. sowee for the article. its a mess
MIANAYM: dont be, its how you remembered. its ok
karinska: i think i shouldnt really write conversational chuvas on my blog especially if ur a part of it
MIANAYM: really, pls, stop being apologetic. I like the last part tho…
“ang kapal talga ng muhka mo”
karinska: i said that. Really. i did
MIANAYM: yes, with all conviction, twinkling eyes and all. i guess i was wrong, youd admit it i did make you happy, or smile or made you feel something pleasant even for a moment right
karinska: i would
MIANAYM: the timeline that i have with you is somewhat divided right. like before,the 'then', the fateful event of leaving and then the 'now'. referring to 'now' i probably wouldnt dare say i can make you smile
karinska: i dont know wer ur getting at. i dont even understand y u asked the difference btween falling in love and being inlove
MIANAYM: well cos for me its different. and i read it in the entry that i said I was inlove. so i was just wondering
karinska: u said it. didnt u? what did u say? u even said it twice thats y i asked u to shut up
MIANAYM: well, i dont really want to argue about it. i guess whats more important is we are talking and i got to see how itl be like. i dont have to wonder i guess. not anymore
karinska: wonder about wat? im not arguing with u. i just wanna know. R u saying i heard it wrong?
MIANAYM: what itl be like if we bump into each other
karinska: answer my Q
MIANAYM: im not sure. but im sure what i meant. but it is irrelevant, dont you think?
karinska: i cant blv u forgot wat uv said (that night)
MIANAYM: i can remember the way you look tho… and ur smile… and what you said… your impression of me… and what transpired to a certain extent
karinska: transpired?
MIANAYM: how it was like, i mean
karinska: i just hate wat uv remembered. cant really blv u forgot ur words to gerard
MIANAYM: hey, il remember them if i think hard enough
karinska: unbelievable